SHE knows it's for her good
As all the New Year's Eve merchandise gradually made their way to the clearance racks, my new year was filled with anticipation and curiosity as I waited to hear if someone had decided to sublease my apartment. For the two weeks of my Christmas break, I had decided I would put all my worries on my shelf in California so I could enjoy the holiday spirit the South had to offer. But now the reality of my unanswered prayers was hitting me as I re-packed my suitcase not knowing if I would be unpacking it for good when I landed or briefly living out of it until I moved to a new place.
Day 3 into the New Year, I received the news that someone would be signing the lease.
Day 4 I was anxiously looking at new apartments with immediate move-in dates.
Day 5 my heart and my phone dropped as I read the message that the subleaser had back out of signing the lease.
Day 6-12 I went to hyper-control mode and began making failed attempts to find a solution or a way out.
Day 13 I gave up. Told God He won (like He didn't already know that). And accepted my lot.
Day 14-17 I waited.
Day 18 He answered.
The apartment I thought was off the market came back on the market.
My location preference I thought I would have to compromise was provided.
The moving process I thought I would attempt to do alone found support.
And by Day 30 I was completely moved out and moved into my new apartment.
As the days and weeks have gone by in my new place, it's so easy to look back in hindsight and see how each detail I asked for, or didn't even think to ask for, was not missed by my Father. It's easy to see how everything worked out in its own timing to make a beautiful testimony that I will forever share with whoever has time to listen.
"And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose."
"...for good". Your good. My good. Our good does not only appear good.
When the first subleaser fell through...that was for my good. But it didn't feel good.
When all the apartments I spent time viewing and negotiating for were taken...that was for my good. But it didn't look good.
When I was beginning to accept that I would have to finish out the remaining 5 months of my lease in a place I was unhappy living in...that was for my good. But it didn't sound good.
It's extremely disappointing when our well-thought out plans fall through and everything seems to be going wrong. In the midst of chaos God is always organized in His ways. He does not falter or fail to do what He set out to do.
What have you asked God for? Take inventory of the situations or events in your life that appear to be going all wrong.
These may be the very things that God will use to work together for your good!