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SHE lets Him take the lead


Right foot back. Left foot forward. Right foot back. Left foot forward.

I chanted these words over and over again in my head as I was spun around the room. My chanting was periodically thrown off by an unexpected spin over the head.

Right foot back. Left foot forward. Right foot back. Left foot forward.

If you haven’t guessed by now, I’m reciting the script for my weekly salsa dancing class. New to Dallas, they became the highlight of my weeks as I and now dear friend were twirled around the room.

Every time I thought I had the choreography down, the gentlemen leading, would spin or toss me in a direction I didn’t see coming. I felt my body tense up. He probably did too.

My body was reacting to the lack of control.

Even though I know very well, that my role in the dance is to simply follow the lead and enjoy the ride, my brain goes on auto-control.

I think he’s going to go this way?

Wait was I supposed to turn?

What goes after this step?

I’m so busy try to plan ahead, I can barely hear the music over my thoughts.

Soon enough, the music's over, and this girl is STRESSED! I quickly retreated to a booth seat to mentally recoup from the physical turned mental dance routine.

In an attempt to gain control I lose it.

Let me just say, I totally believe that God is way exponentially more knowledgeable than me. I’m all in agreement with Isaiah 55:8

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord.

But then a thought pops in my head that I think is totally a great plan, just to find out that that wasn’t even His plan for me at all.

When it comes to my big life decisions, this happens so often, that I typically anticipate the opposite of what I want for myself. And I’m usually right about being wrong.

I enter my spiritual dance with God totally planning to let Him lead so I can put my over-analytical brain at rest. But the minute the choreography begins I begin planning the next steps so far in advance, that when God guides me in a direction I did not anticipate, I tense up and I lose heart.

Perhaps to the outside world, no one can see it, but the tension between Him and I becomes very real.

“Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”

Matthew 14:31

Seeking after God through His word and personal time with Him is the best way to truly align yourself with Him. He wants to take us on a beautifully choreographed dance made just for us, with less tension and more trust.

What areas do you need to get in alignment with God?


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