SHE is unbothered
2 years ago I went on my first cruise. As an avid avoider of all things aquatic, a cruise seemed like a big jump from barely being able wade in 4 feet of water to literally floating in a large body of water with constant flashbacks to scenes from Titanic. As my friend and I approached this huge cruise ship where we were quickly herded to listen to 10 minutes of boat safety and rescue protocols, I remember thinking...did I make a mistake? What am I, a non-swimmer, doing on a boat...for a week.
While I was still sorting through all the worst possible scenarios in my head, I began to feel the brush of people as they began to walk excitedly back on the boat to resume their vacations. Some went straight to the adult beverage station, others flip-flopped toward the deck, and some just kind of stood in the middle of one of the many rooms just looking around trying to figure out where to start.
My friend and I decided that we would take part in one of the top amenities of cruise ships...unlimited buffet. 2 burgers, fries, and a cup of the most amazing strawberry frozen yogurt ever, I began to doze off on one of the beach chairs.
After about an hour, I was woken up by the sound of crashing waves. Not the aggressive kind, but the kind that you would download on one of those sleep aid apps. I remember laying there in such peace knowing that I literally had nothing to worry about. Well I actually did have a report for work due when I returned, a tire that went flat right before I travelled out of town that would need fixing when I got back, and the stained memories of a recent heartbreak that I was still reasoning out.
But none of those things mattered in those several minutes I had. Just laying there. Taking in the silence and the lack of immediate attention to anything but the present moment. I remember wondering what it would be like if this could be my reality forever.
Short of walking around all day with headphones and the sound of crashing waves on repeat, I knew that that type of peace would not come easily.
How do you find peace in a state of chaos?
The beautiful thing about peace is that it is like joy. It works independent of the current situation. Clearly laying on a comfy beach chair on a perfectly warm, airy day would evoke feelings of peace. That’s easy. What’s hard is finding that same peace when everything around you seems to be falling apart.
In my walk, with Christ, that has always been a test that I struggle to pass. Sometimes I pass with flying colors, other times, I fail so miserably you’d never know I “studied” at all. Peace is a choice. It’s deciding that despite your circumstance, you choose to allow Christ to be the peace in your tough moment turned to moments, until the waves crashing around no longer scare you.
“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you...”
What peace do you long for in your life?
How can you make gradual choices in your life to choose peace?