SHE falls in love...again
I’ve only been in love once. It was the type of love that made me reconsider the definition of unconditional love. He wasn’t perfect. He had his flaws, but in the midst of all the imperfection I still wanted to be with him.
My love for him was so deep that it encompassed my thoughts and made re-think things I never thought I would do. Like let down my walls low enough to let someone see me...pain, past, and all. As his love chipped away at the self-made bricks I had built over the years, I felt beautifully exposed. No matter what I did to push him away, it seemed like my character flaws turned into beauty marks through his eyes.
When I had to trust God and walk away from him, however, I was devastated. How could I experience such a sense of acceptance from someone that I not only knew as a lover, but a close friend? As I processed the pain I felt, I didn’t realize I was breaking God’s heart.
All the while, I had created an unholy love triangle. My first love. Me. Christ.
“For you shall not worship any other god, for the Lord, whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God”
While I was falling madly in love with this imperfect man, I put all my other relationships on the back burner. I openly friend-zoned Christ, as I spoke to Him about this new found love like it was nothing I had every experienced before. As if the love that was poured on the cross, had lost it's value over time. I used this man as an inaccurate ruler in which I would measure and perceive love. Constantly, downplaying the affection that was already demonstrated through grace to me every day.
I no longer just want to love Jesus, but be IN love with Him. I want to live my life in total anticipation of being with him, total acceptance of being loved by him, and total adoration of who He is.
I’ve found love again, and He’s madly in love with me.
"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
Are you in a love triangle with Christ?
When was the last time you truly allowed yourself to experience Christ’s love?